Letters To An Angel: Vol 2
For Briana McHam On the 2 Year Anniversary Of Her Death
These past two years I have copped with your loss through my poetry, and you have made me stronger. Made me accept myself for who I am, and continue to push me to become who I need to be. This piece of poetry is for you.
For Briana M.
i still think of your death as my lifes mystery.
the case that keeps my eyes pinned to the chaos
of color in my disillusioned darkness. how many
hours do i have to find the truth.
unpack claims of dehydration being the palms
that pushed you off a cliff, or made you fall.
made you stumble, or slip, or go to sleep without
i want to know if you smiled in pain, knowing
your destiny would be warm and welcoming, and kiss
you before reassuring your safety. did you cry
love? did you ache?
did you have feeling, like the ones you showered
all over the people you cared for. the sweet
love you had in abundance. did they hold you gently,
the people whose fingers carried you, or your body
or the piece you left behind because i still tell
myself you’ll be back soon. youll laugh soon. give
more of your love soon, or just the space for
me to do the same for you.
a moment for us to share a smile, and in that
moment, i tell you how much i am proud of you.
how sure i am that your love will stain everything
and everyone you show a piece of your smile to.
and i will remember you in this way until I can
sleep fully aware that youre not here